Besides this one, my dreams recently have been more violent than they typically have been in the past. Whether it's me fighting off pirates, escaping from zombies, or trapped in a war, this seems to be a common theme in my dreams right now.
Now, the exact reasons why is a more difficult thing to say, but it seems to me to be a manifestation of the emotional stress and the sickness. Also, giving my current difficulties some examination, I feel the emotional stress and sickness are merely manifestations of deeper root causes. We can say it's recent stressful experiences, but perhaps that's also another symptom. Though this is still more theory than statement, I think that all of this can be declared in this vague way:
I have been functioning at the wrong frequency.
All the poor choices, the sickness, the emotional stress, is a result of being on the wrong wavelength. Though remedying the choices, the illness, the stress, etc., can eliminate the symptoms, the cancer will remain until I address it directly. Finding the exact root, the original cause, which set me to the wrong frequency is more difficult. I can get partway back on track without knowing, I think, but knowing the right war to wage will be a necessary step for a more permanent recovery.
There is not merely one world that we interact with. The material world is a visual manifestation of our five senses, depicting an immaterial world which we experience without having a full comprehension of it. Though there are manifestations in the material world of things like love and peace, these realities are not merely the chemical substances that are released, the physical sensations we feel, or the psychological background we associate with them. Instead, these things are all symptoms of a deeper truth.
Those who are Christians may call it a spiritual world. Those who engage in the study of Quantum Physics may have a more parascientific explanation. There are countless definitions from countless cultures and paradigms. I call it "energy." Not merely material moving at a faster pace - but a world that occurs on a more root level. It is not a lower level, it not a higher level. It is an infinite parallel that occurs on a different plane. The material world is a manifestation of this reality that we cannot fully comprehend, at least not yet.
This world that we live in - a manifestation of a far deeper truth that we have lost touch with - is like a strange dream. During the course of our existence, it makes sense to us. It contains its own set of rules and laws, which, like those in a dream, hold little real significance, except in their impact on the deeper reality. Should we ever wake, we would quickly discover what little sense our constructed reality had.
We as humans are not merely consciousness, but made up of eternal building blocks - energies that have been in the Universe since it began, and will continue to be in the Universe forever. Energies that can neither be created nor destroyed. Only altered.
Of all attachments, the hardest to break is the attachment of consciousness to its own consciousness. Perpetually obsessed with finding an immortality of itself, it misses so many other opportunities. We are not merely ourselves. We are a part of something greater, and gain significance through our actions, and their impact on those around us. As we cause good in the world, as we bring about an alteration to more peace, more love, more goodness, we can be called good. The ripples of our actions extend outward into eternity, and through our actions, we have obtained immortality from the moment of our first breath.
